HUH???????

Ani Lo Mevina.... That is all I am gonna say, I don't get it. But then I never did, which could explain lots. Nothing exciting to report here. Work is fine, home life is boring, going away for Shabbos. I dunno....... Wow, my life looks boring in print. Listening to my "Launch" thingie, which is this really cool streaming radio thing from Yahoo, and I have customized my station which means it plays what I like, and not what I don't..... Anyway currently it is playing Meat Loaf, I am all about the Meat Loaf! (Note to J: wanna go to another Loaf show with you!) On phone with my sister now, she is weird. Anyway, I am gonna go make supper now.
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!

Midweek ick!

Wednesdays blow!! Today was kind of blah, must have been the weather. As a side note, I am NOT SICK. I cannot be possibly, I mean I had the damn flu last week, so this chest constriction, and hacking cough must be my imagination. Today is my friend's 30th bday, so good thoughts and wishes to that person.
S called me when I was on my way home from work and said, "hey what are you doing for dinner?" I responded that I was not doing anything special. She replied "I am really in the mood for chicken." I knew what was coming next. She does not have any fleishig (meat) equipment in her kitchen. She wanted to use me for my fleishig oven! Since she offered to share I said yes. We shared a lovely meal of onion rings and chicken nuggets (like we were 7), and some conversation. I have come to the conclusion that it is not all my fault. Some of it is, and I was being selfish, but some of it just happened, NO ONE's fault.
I have to say since I am in a reflective mood, I never thought I would be 30 and alone. Now I know that some yahoo is out there reading this (ok maybe yahoo is a bad word) and going, "you are not alone f! We have been through this, you have lots of friends, and you have your faith, and you are not alone!" I know!!!!! Let me rephrase, I never thought I would be 30, not married, and no kids. More clear? I mean my big goal in life was to get married, and be at least a part time stay at home mom. In any case, that is clearly not in Hashem's plan for the right now. In the future IY"H (G-D willing), it will be. Ok I have obviously crossed into rambling. Time to go shluffie (sleep)
Gnite y'all
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Another Tuesday, Another Bath.....

Ok, for those of you who wonder where I go every Tuesday, and are not fortunate enough to know them, this (to my left) should be a pic of the H family. Well most of them. Mr. H was out when I took this pic. Note the cutie in the blue "jamas", she is the one who has appropriated me. She is fond of running around the house going "my Faye, my Faye", which heck, I am all about. Anyway, I went to work today, that was not exciting. Then I went to the H's. The oldest boy (the one is the orange) asked how come I was going home, cause he thinks I live there. That was funny. Tomorrow I have to be at work at 8, which is not so bad. Anyway, I am rambling. Have a good night y'all
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ug!

Damn I hate being up later than I should be. an hour ago I was falling asleep, I mean dead to the world asleep. Now all of a sudden, I cannot fall asleep, and I know the ambien began to work cause I got that pass out feeling, which has now passed..... damn.... Oh well. I played with my new digial camera tonite, that was exciting, but I had lots of questions, which is why I called my friend Pink, he is computer expert. I may have inadvertatly hurt someone important to me tonight. I did not mean to, I just had a puter question..... shoot check out random pick of our fugly couch
F OUT!!!!!!

Time Check.....

it is entirely to late for someone my age to be up....... I did not even nap this afternoon. I am so gonna sleep late tomorrow (or with my luck not). Anyway.......... Pink, congrats on the blog. Now you just have to update, unlike efrex!
F OUT!

BORED.............

I must be feeling better, I am going stir crazy. Have not been out of the house since about 4 yesterday afternoon. I am not going to go out tomorrow either, I do not think. I called my boss, and he told me to stay home tomrorow, and get all the way better, which is fine, except that when I am not there, things have a tendency not to get done, and I am gonna get it on Monday, but whatever, his choice. I need to have challah and stuff, and tonight I am certainly NOT up to going out and getting it. Maybe tomorrow I will feel better enough to get out for a little. We will see. I was on the phone with my friend today, and I was saying that I feel like I should accomplish something if I am not at work. I was told by said friend that my accomplishment would be to take care of myself, and get better. I guess he is right.. Damn I hate it when other people are right! I am usually better about being sick, but I just feel awful, although better than yesterday. I am going to go lay down again, cause I have no energy.
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

UGGG............

I am NOT sick......... Hear me, not sick!!!!!!!!! I am not sick, I am not sick, I am not sick. I really hope that whatever it is passes quickly. I am not even stuffed up, just have fever, and chills, and aches. ICK
F OUT (back to bed)

Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy 2006 everyone! I hope that this year is filled with Bracha (blessing) and Mazal (luck) for everyone! I know that I do not get a chance to keep up will all of you in person, but I hope that this in some small way makes up for it. I love you all, and am eternally thankful to have you for friends! F OUT!!!!!!!
p.s just 26 days until I turn the BIG 30

Party Time........

Shavua Tov (a good week) to everyone. I hope y'all had a restful Shabbos. For my part I was asleep by 11, and up at 8:30. I read a 600 + page book between last night and today, but I have read it before. I have a load of laundry in, and have cleaned up from the Holy Sabbath. We are having a Chanukah party here tonite, followed by a shiur (scholarly discourse) on said holiday. I totally forgot that tonite was New Years Eve, which is kinda funny, but I remember now. Since I remember I will take this opportunity to wish a Happy Anniversary to R & D, may you have many many more happy years together! I have no idea what time this party starts, but as of yet flatmate is not home, so it can't be that soon!!!!
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shabbos

Hope everyone has a good Shabbos. Will try to write more after the Sabbath ends. I am currently exhausted!
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!

OK I am home! The wedding stuff all got to the wedding hall with minimal fuss. It is scheduled to start in 25 minutes. When I left tonight they were already starting to make the food for Sheva Brachos, which should make tomorrow go easier. It was not as bad as I thought today, he only yelled at me once, and that was not even really at me, just kind of in my general direction, and it was over the phone, so really not so bad. Anyway, I have to go light Chanukah candles. Chag Sameach!
F OUT!!!!!!!!

Hi Y'all...............

Ok so I just need to start this post by saying that I am sad. My Abba had to have Stuss (his cat) put down this morning. He was just such a cute kitty. Many of you have met him, and know how adorable he was. He used to run around chasing his tail, and could never quite catch it. I am sad, but at least he is not in pain, and that is important, even to a pet.
On a separate note, work has been absolutely INSANE this week, and does not show any signs of abating. I will be SOOOO SOOO SOO glad when this weekend is over. I know that this woman does not mean to be a pain, but oh my goodness!! Also, it is not like it will be better after the wedding is over tomorrow either, since we are doing Shabbos Sheva Brachos at the hotel! I am infinitely glad to have work and health insurance though, so I know I should not complain. I hope that those of you that are celebrating Chanukah are having a great one, and those of you that are not had a Happy Holiday. Anywho....... I am gonna go.
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am a LUCKY girl!

I really do have the best friends in the world. I am so lucky! Thank You! (you know who you are). Anyway Shavua Tov (a good week) to all. Be careful out there!
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

UGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am SOOOOOO sick of X-Mas music. I cannot wait until Monday, it should all be over then. Anyway, a freilichen (happy) chanukah to all. To those of you that do not celebrate Chanukah then Merry X-Mas or Happy Kwanzaa, Feliz Posada, Happy Diwali, or whatever it is that you celebrate. Make sure to tell your families that you love them.
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday Night's Alright (for bathing)

I know that is a really bad title, but that is what I do on Tuesday. I go to the H's, and help her serve supper (which she in turn feeds me also). Then I give the 2 girls baths. There is nothing cuter than a 3 year old playing in the tub. I walked in the door tonite, and she attacked me. "My Faye, my Faye, my Faye!!!!!!!!!!" She is a posessive little bugger, but I love her, and her sibs as well. I capped off the evening by holding the baby till he fell asleep in my arms. SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway, work seems to be doing fine. G'nite y'all....
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nisia Tova/Hatzlacha (Safe trip & good luck)

Wanted to take this opportunity to wish the M's a super safe trip as they head HOME!!!! to the Holy Land. You will sorely be missed but IY"H (G-D Willing) I will be there soon to bug you! I can't believe that you guys are really going. I know that the R's will also be going soon-ish, and taking my adorable nephew with them! (which I Guess is fair, since he is their son).... Listening to Naomi Shemer sing Yerushalayim Shel Zahav, and I have tears running down my cheeks. Geez what the heck am I doing here? I have made no real effort at dating (who would want me), I have made no real inroads at Aliyah, I am just taking up space for Pete's sake. I am all of a sudden very down and I have NO idea why. My mood currently blows.... damn I hate mood swings. Anyway, I am going to go crochet some more, since I seem to be semi good at that. Not as good or creative as S, but then I do not need to be. The people that get the gifts for the most part seem to like them. That is good enough for me. I make you something, and you wear or use it for your kid that is the biggest compliment you can give me.
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


what is wrong with all men? I just do not understand them. I mean even a little. Poor Sh, she is going through some stuff now, I hope that she can get through it, and that I am helpful in some way.

No Good Title

So I got taken out for brunch, which was nice. Then I went with S to pick up dumbbells (the workout kind, not the male kind), then I came home and cleaned my stove. That was exciting. Did we notice how boring I am? I am debating whether I want to fix the bracelet I made for Brat, or if I want to make a random baby blanket, or make myself a second scarf, or just burn some of the music my friend just gave me, or if I want to do nothing except veg in front of the TV. hmmmmm..... Veg might win........ Sundays are so boring. I could do laundry, except that we are out of laundry soap, and it is not my turn to buy. Whatever (geez, I still do not like that word!) Ravens do not play today so I do not have to worry about them losing, I can wait until tomorrow for that. I guess I am gonna go now.....
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MOTZ"SH (After Shabbos)

Wow, turned on computer after Shabbos, went to read various news sites, and discovered that John Spencer died. What a bummer, he was a good actor. I loved him as Leo McGarry on the West Wing, and they are gonna have to do some serious footwork to get around this. He was also on LA Law which was one of my fave things to watch with my mom. Then I looked at the next article, and the caption was "Body Found in Big Birds Nest", now I ask you, could you leave that alone? Turns out a body was found on the property of the guy who plays Big Bird, and he is not a suspect at all, his caretaker is. What a strange wacked out world we live in.
I am trying to figure out if I should go out tonight and be social, or just stay home and talk to friends on IM. I really am the most boring person ever!!!
Anyway I hope everyone has a great rest of weekend. More later.
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shabbos

GOOD SHABBOS Y'ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Od Pa'am (one more time) with feeling!

Is it even worth pointing out that my extremities are COLD! The heat is on, but my fingertips and toes are kinda tinged this color. Which is vaguely disturbing! I am in the midst of my pre-holiday/during the winter funk. I need sun!!!! That is so funny, cause I am not a huge fan of heat, but my skin does not like winter even a little. My hands are cracked and bleeding, which I will get over, and I just feel blah! Ok now that I have given everyone too much information...... Rest assured that I will get over it. I am just in a bad mood. Thank G-D I have all my friends to listen to me bitch. BTW: listening to "Downeaster Alexa" did NOT cheer me up!
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!