Wednesdays blow!! Today was kind of blah, must have been the weather. As a side note, I am NOT SICK. I cannot be possibly, I mean I had the damn flu last week, so this chest constriction, and hacking cough must be my imagination. Today is my friend's 30th bday, so good thoughts and wishes to that person.
S called me when I was on my way home from work and said, "hey what are you doing for dinner?" I responded that I was not doing anything special. She replied "I am really in the mood for chicken." I knew what was coming next. She does not have any fleishig (meat) equipment in her kitchen. She wanted to use me for my fleishig oven! Since she offered to share I said yes. We shared a lovely meal of onion rings and chicken nuggets (like we were 7), and some conversation. I have come to the conclusion that it is not all my fault. Some of it is, and I was being selfish, but some of it just happened, NO ONE's fault.
I have to say since I am in a reflective mood, I never thought I would be 30 and alone. Now I know that some yahoo is out there reading this (ok maybe yahoo is a bad word) and going, "you are not alone f! We have been through this, you have lots of friends, and you have your faith, and you are not alone!" I know!!!!! Let me rephrase, I never thought I would be 30, not married, and no kids. More clear? I mean my big goal in life was to get married, and be at least a part time stay at home mom. In any case, that is clearly not in Hashem's plan for the right now. In the future IY"H (G-D willing), it will be. Ok I have obviously crossed into rambling. Time to go shluffie (sleep)