Goodbye Jerry

What can I say. I sit here tonight sad. Jerry Orbach died last night. I do not think I even knew he was sick. Turns out he had prostate cancer. I loved him on Law & Order, but really he was a Broadway actor. He was in some of my fave shows, including Chicago. He could sing, and dance, and act. The trifecta! Anyway, just wanted to let you know in case you didn't.
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Another Saturday Night......

That seems to be a common title to my Saturday night posts. First of all. Mazal Tov to B&B on the birth of Gechalilit! (ok so her real name is Eleora Leah) Hamayvin Yavin...... Mazal Tov to E&J on their anniversary (I think it is the 4th). That takes care of the mazal tov portion of the program. A little later in the evening I will return to my teenage roots and go babysit. I mean really, babysit. How old am I again?? Oh yeah, and Brat had a birthday last week, she is 24. I know, hard to believe. Anyway, Chanukah is over, I hope y'all had a chag urim sameach! Those of you who want to talk to me who have my cell feel free to call
F OUT!!!

MAZAL TOV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S A GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Mazal Tov, B&B who had a baby girl Shabbos morning. More details as I get them!
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A FREILICHEN CHANUKAH!

A Happy Chanukah to those of you that are celebrating it. Tonite is the 5th night, which is sometimes referred to as "the darkest night" of chanukah. It is called this because it is the only night of Chanukah that cannot possibly fall on Shabbos. For a really interesting vort on this go here. http://www.treppenwitz.com This is the blog of a man who made Aliyah with his family, and is very informative. Anyway, that is all for me, debating whether or not to order a pizza.
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FILED MY DIVORCE PAPERS TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TIME MARCHES ON..........

Ok so I just realized that I have not posted since the day of the elections, or the day after...... I have been remarkably busy at work. In fact, the fact that today is Sunday means NOTHING and I will head into work for a few hours. Of course I think that my boss did it on purpose, so I would miss the game today. The RAVENS take on the DALLAS COWBOYS. We will see how that goes, but I am not too worried, after all the Cowboys are not exactly having a stellar season. In any case, I will not get to watch, since I will be supervising the washing of the dishes at work. On a completely different note, can you believe that Thursday is Thanksgiving already? I will (surprise, surprise) be working on Thursday. Only half a day I hope. My Abba and my sister will be here for the meal, which I still have to find time to cook. I may have to give up my chavrusa on Tuesday, which I really do not want to do........ I think I will start to cook tonite, and I might actually *gasp* buy dessert instead of cooking it. Anyway, F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4 more years.....

Well, it appears as if Saturday Night Live will have 4 more years to make fun of "W". I have no idea if that is a good thing or a bad thing at this point. Anyone who knows me knows how conflicted I was before voting yesterday. I really disliked both candidates, and I think our country is in a sad state when people go to the polls trying to figure out which candidate they hate less. I need to make Aliyah, that is the conclusion that I came to. I mean, I knew that anyway, but this just caps it. "W" has had 4 years, and has done a whole lot of nothing, but I guess we should give him a chance to prove that he can finish what he started.... I dunno, I guess I am kinda ambivilant (sorry Hon). However on a completely different note... how about dem RED SOX. How cool is that??? VERY EXCITED. Being an Orioles fan, you cannot help but dislike the Yankees, and anyone who beats them is OK in my book. Anyway, I am going to go lay down, since I seem to have the plague........
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!

ALRIGHT ALREADY!

Ok, I get it. I have been informed that I have been slacking in my blogging (you know who you are!) So here it is, yet another so exciting glimpse into my life. Let's see. Yesterday was the english anniversary of my mother's passing, so that sucked. Friday was 1 calendar year since my jack-ass of an ex-husband walked out on me for no particular reason, so that sucked too. My boss was in New York today, so that was actually MUCH fun!!!!!!! I am doing laundry, which is boring, but must be done! That is about it, strangely my life is not so exciting!
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, rainy Sunday

Well the weather here in B'More absolutely SUX today. I mean, beyond belief sux. It is rainy, and misty, and cold, and blech! Today is the perfect day to stay in my flannel pants and sweatshirt and watch the RAVENS stomp the hell out of the Bills. I hope everyone has a fun day.
F OUT!!!!!!!!!

Yitgadal v Yitkadash......

Today is Lamed Tishrei, which is my beloved mother's first yartzheit. Please say extra Tehillim for Necha Etta Bat Fruma. Keep her in your thoughts and prayers.

Another Saturday Night......

There we go, finally. Ok FINALLY done with the freakin Yom Tov, thank G-D for that. I hope everyone had a lovely Festival of Tabernacles, I did but MAN was it long! Tomorrow I have to work, which bites, but the Ravens play late tomorrow night, which means that I will not miss it while I am at work. I watched Spiderman (Again) with my flatmate tonite. Anyway, I am going to go.........
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so I have not written in FOREVER. I apologize. Here we go Work good, no life, so life good. Happy end of Sukkot everyone.
F OUT!!!

Shana Tova

I want to wish everyone a Shana Tova. I know I have not written in a while, and I apologize, but really no one reads this anyway. I hope everyone had a meaningful fast, and B"H that is over with. I love Sukkot. I like the whole outside aspect, although my allergies do not. Anyway, with L off in the Holy Land, I have not had a lot of girl bonding recently, but that is fine. I got certified to Mashgiach at parties, so that means that I have to be at work at 5 am Wed to prepare for the bris we have. What a way to go into Yom Tov! I am going to need to sleep like a madwoman after that! S'anyway, I really have nothing productive to say, so I am going to go. have a great Yom Tov y'all!
F OUT!!!!!!

So it begins....

I hope everyone had a great Rosh Hashana. Now on to Yom Kippur. I hope everyone has a meaningful fast. As for myself, things are really moving along. My year of aveilut is almost over, just another few weeks, and my official mourning will be over. I say official because in my heart some part of me will always mourn my mother. The time is coming too when I will be eligible for my civil divorce (yay), so I just have to hope that my ex-husband is a man and files the papers on time. Anyway, I need to go take care of some stuff, just know that I am thinking of all of you!
F OUT!!!!!

Head of the Year

Just wanted to wish everyone a ktiva vchatima tova. Also best wishes for a shana tova umetuka. Gosh that looks weird in english. Anyway, I have to go to work now........
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Happy Joy Joy

Ok so this weekend was awesome. Got to bond with L, which was nice. She got broken up with last week which sux. What moron would break up with her? Got to hang with M to, and that was really really nice. I love presents, hamayvin yavin! Anyway, work continues to suck, but hopefully I will find something better soon, where they do not yell and me and degrade me for no particular reason all the time! I am going out on the porch now to watch the rain roll in.
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday......

Isn't it sad that that is the most exciting title I could come up with. So B"H I have been working my tushie off, and earning money. Today I did not leave work till close to 7:30, but it is all good. If I have ignored people I apologize, I was involved in something that may or may not come to fruition, but it is enough to say that I have learned that I am a valuable person. I have made a new friend (who is really an old friend) who exasperates me to no end, but I know would do anything for me, if I really needed it. On the super cool side, L is coming for Shabbat again,which makes me happy. We will giggle, and stay up all night, and act like we are 4. So I am going to shower and shluf, and think about stuff.
F OUT!!!!!!

sux to be me again

Another Saturday Night......

You know the song. Another Saturday night, and I ain't got nobody. Except that B"H I really do have lots of people that I can count on. I do not think I say thank you enough, so here is a short list. I realize that most of you do not read this, but what the hell, it is theraputic for me. J- I miss you, and wish you and DAH the best. D-I miss you as well, and was really excited to see you 2 weeks ago. L-the shabbos we spent together was eye opening, and G-D Bless you for it! N&A glad that you are settling into your new house! Brat- can't wait to watch the O's lose with you and Abba tomorrow (later today) B&B you guys have always been there for me, and I know will continue to be, even from Aretz! J&E-I miss you guys, and miss going to piano bars with you! Ok I think that almost covers it, I am sure I left people out, but that is the crux of it!
On a new topic entirely........ Michael Phelps is YUMMY!!!!!!! I just cannot get over how great he looks in those ridiculous capri length swimming trunks. Ok, I know he is like 12, but I am entitled to look! In general, I have been quite impressed with the US athletes, my one exception would be the "Dream Team", boy do they bite! Anyway, it is like midnight, and I am just starting my blog reading, so I will go do that. F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE TAX MAN COMETH

What is that they say about there only being 3 certain things in life? Anyway....... Spent lots of tonite trying to do my taxes with my friends husband, who is an acct. We got most of it figured out, but were missing 1 piece of paper. Stupid IRS! So tomorrow I will get to do this again....... And do my state taxes. G-D I cannot wait to be done with this. Anyway, I am going to go watch the late coverage of the olympics. E&J if you read this, have fun with the bookshelves!!!!!!!! L, if you read this, I miss you, and cannot wait to come visit you.
F OUT!

Another Week Gone (well almost)

WOW is it pouring outside! I really dislike thunder and lightening, especially when I have no one to hold on to. There are aspects of being married that I miss, but on the whole, really MUCH MUCH happier now. Anyway, I cannot believe that I have been at my job for a month and a half already. Sometimes it feels like I have been there forever, and sometimes, like I just got there and know nothing. Today was really really nice, boss was not there. Aside from one really pesky customer it was quiet, and I learned some stuff about checking orders from a mashgiach persepective. Anyway, since I plan to sleep a lot on Shabbat, I am not sure that I will have time to write when I get home tomorrow when I get home (gonna get an early start on the nap), and hey, in a total change of subject the lights just flickered, ick! So in conclusion, thunder and lightening bad, job good, financial situation, looking better, in general F happy!
Shabbat Shalom Y'all
F OUT!!!!!!!!

mazal tov!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They are married!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAZAL TOV J&D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT A WEEKEND!!!

OH MY GOODNESS! WHAT AN AMAZING SHABBOS!! I AM STILL AMAZED BY HOW GREAT IT WAS. LEE, THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT TOO IS A "HAMAYVIN YAVIN" SO ANYWAY, LEE WAS HERE, AND IT WAS REALLY NICE. FRIDAY NIGHT WE JUST HUNG OUT THE 2 OF US, GIGGLING A LOT, LIKE WE ALWAYS DO. SHABBOS DAY WE HAD LUNCH WITH MY FLATMATE AND 2 OF HER FRIENDS, IT WAS REALLY NICE. LAST NIGHT WE WALKED AROUND FELLS POINT, WHICH I HAVE NOT DONE SINCE I WAS A FRESHMAN IN COLLEGE. THE ONLY BAD PART WAS THE HEAT LIGHTENING, BUT REALLY IT WAS MORE COOL THAN SCARY. WE WERE UP TILL 5 TALKING, THAT IS REALLY LATE WHEN YOU ARE 28! TODAY WAS KIND OF BORING, BUT I DID BUY A GORGEOUS (IF I DO SAY SO MYSELF) DRESS FOR J&DS WEDDING. CANNOT BEGIN TO DESCRIBE MY EXCITEMENT FOR THAT COMING EVENT! AND AS AN ADDED BONUS I GET TO SEE BRAT, AS SHE WAS INVITED AS WELL. WELL THAT IS ALL FROM HERE, I AM TURNING IN EARLY.
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!

MUSIC, SWEET MUSIC

As you can tell, we have come to the end of the 3 weeks!  Thank G-D for that.  I had a stomach bug Sunday and Monday, so was not so anxious to fast.  I called my Rav who told me to begin the fast, but if I was ill, to break.  I am eating some of the rice pudding that I made, that my stomach was too icky to eat last night.  Homemade rice pudding is YUMMY!!!!!!  I have nothing of substance to say, which is not unusual, so I will close with this.  My abba fasted!  Not only that but he did not shower, or shave!  Those of you who know him understand how proud that makes me!  Anyway, today was incredibly busy at work, B"H.  Anyway, am going to the Goffins for dinner, so I will be back later!
F OUT!!!!!!!!

Good Morning Rockville!!

Boy does the weather bite  here in Rockville today.  Anyway, I am at my Abba's.  We had a lovely brunch, followed by me hanging out on the puter whilst he does his cleaning routine.  I had a WONDERFUL Shabbos in Scenic White Oak.  B&B, and the little ones were adorable.  Anyway, it was nice to be with people who have known me a long time, and reassured me that things are going to be ok.  Had a really nice lunch with the Eisenbugs, and their little maidala, Kayla (what a cutie!)  I am going to go help my dad clean, just remember that a dog in Frederick says fredg fredg fredg.... Hamayvin y'avin!!!!!!!!
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mint and cream and M&M's oh my!!!!!!!

I am SOOOOOOOO proud of my self.  My mother gave me an ice cream maker last year, and I tried it a bunch of times, and I could just never seem to make it work.  I decided to give it another shot, cause what the heck, and....... the result is ICE CREAM that is this color, with mini M&M's in it.  I cannot wait to try it, but I will be a good girl and have dinner first!  Wow, look y'all, I found something good about the 9 days!  Anyway, I have a horrible headache, so I am gonna go eat.  Hope everyone has a great Shabbos!
F OUT!!!!!!!!


 

CHEATING!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, so I finally figured out how to rig my blog so that I can insert a title, and I was all excited cause I learned the HTML code to do things in color, and now on my toobar, is a freaking "color" thing!  That is it, no brains, no code, just click the stupid box! damnit!  Next to the stupid color box is a link box, which means that I did not have to bother to learn the code for that either! darnit!!!!!!! Since it is here, I will use it.  I am sure that most of you have seen this already, but go to www.atomfilms.com  There is a really really funny song there, if you bother go and check out "This land is your land"  Anyway, I am starving and in general I hate the 9 days, which I guess is the point!
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pachalafaka

Right so........ again, the title is apropos of nothing, except that it is a Muppets song that I love.  I had written in previous posts that like the title song to Avenue Q, it "Sucked to be me".  I would like to be the first to announce, that it no longer sucks to be me, it only mildly bites.  I think that I am truly trying to move forward in my life.  I still miss my Ima immensely, but it really does get easier.  I am happy with work, though incredibly busy.  I guess you cannot have it both ways, before I was bored with nothing to do, and now I am super busy.  Hashem should continue to be good to my boss, who really is a big ba'al tzedakah.  As far as the leaving of the person I thought loved me more than any other, apparently I was wrong.  I have made mistakes before, and always learned from them, so this is no different.
On a completely different note, I was able to listen to the ORIOLES game today because i brought a radio with me to work.  In any case, they just beat up on the poor Kansas City Royals to no end.  The final was 12-3.  This too made me happy.  I have learned to be happy with myself, and with small things, that is a valuable lesson y'all.  I have also learned that I, by myself, am a person of value, and do not need anyone else to tell me so (although compliments are ALWAYS welcome!) In any case, that is all for this evening from hot, humid, sticky B-more.
F OUT!!!

WHAT A DIFFERENCE A DAY MAKES

Well in my case it is "what a difference a month makes"  On June 16, I was preparing for my job to end (last day was the 17th) and I had NO prospects for a new one.  Today my boss reminded me that we need to get me on the health plan!  Woohoo, no more Artscroll plan for me! For those of you that do not know, the Artscroll plan is when you have no health insurance, so you daven a lot! Anyway, even tho my throat hurts,  I am in a EXCELLENT mood, so have a SUPREME Shabbos! F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ah Turkey......land of my dreams

Ok the title is apropos of absolutely NOTHING! I am just stopping by to let you know that they like me, they really like me!! Ok my sad Sally Field moment is over. My boss took me aside today and told me that he likes me, and thinks that it is working out. At which point, I made a silent woohoo sound in my head. Good thing he cannot hear those! Anyway that is where we stand. I would like you all to know that I do think about most of you even if I do not keep in touch so well. I have no internet access at work, which makes it difficult. Anyway..... F OUT!!!!

ok so long story short, I was excused (no need to read any further if that is what you were searching for.) Now the LONG version.
I get there at 12:30 like a good girl. I sit there, I sit there some more. At 1:45 the judge comes in, and thanks us for our patience, and says that they are trying to work on some things. They are sorry for all the hurry up and wait, but just to be patient for a while longer. So I wait, and I wait some more. Then at 3;57 the clerk comes in and tells us to go to the courtroom we were in yesterday where they FINALLY start jury selection. Which by the way, is a tedious process. So they get to my number and asked if I was acceptable to the state, which I was, then asked if I was acceptable to the defense, which I was NOT! B"H To add to the freak out factor, the defendant is staring at you the whole time!! Today we learned that he contracting to have 2 of the witnesses murdered, and this a*&hole knows my name?????
F OUT!!!!!!!!!

ok, so I had jury duty today. It was some special case, with a visiting judge, and a whole hoohaa. So we have to be there atr 8:15, but they do not start till 12. Thankfully I had a friend with me (yay chaya!!!!!!!!) Then they asked endless questions, and I finally was able to tell the judge that I am my only source of support and if I do not work, then I do not get paid. Since it is a murder trial I aslo told him that my cousin was murdered, and that would color my view. So finally at like 4:45 they read off a whole bunch of numbers that are excused. I was NOT among them. Then they took roll call, then dismissed a whole bunch more people. Again, I was not among them. Then at 5, they go, well we are not able to pick a jury today, so you need to come back tomrorow at 12:30. My faith in the justice system is now non-existent!!!!!!!
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!

I apologize for not writing for a whole week. Mea culpa. I have been wicked busy. Working for a caterer right before the 3 weeks is HARD. We had 2 bar mitzvahs, a bbq, a office party, and a wedding this week. All before shkia on Monday. WOW! I tell you what, WOW! Anyway, at the end of the day Friday he told me to come in at 9 on Monday, so I guess that is good. Even if he changes his mind and decides he does not want me, then I am still no worse off than I was 2 weeks ago (thanks jude), right? Anyway, I went out and bought some work clothes today, and now am sitting at home, listening to the Orioles game, and NOT going to fireworks!
F OUT!!!!!!

Well today sucked. He had me work, he told me that he needed a part time mashgiach, and I may need to wear a sheitel. He never heard of a divorced woman not covering her hair. He hired me on a probationary basis, if he is unhappy Friday, then I am fired....again I say IT SUCKS TO BE ME.....

Ok so check this out..... first of all, went to ORIOLES GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 3rd base line, 3 rows back (beat that efrex!) It was beautiful, and not so humid, and I got color. Then there was a really hot guy sitting next to me, and he hit on me! That has NEVER happened before, I mean NEVER! Then he bought me a drink *giddy school girl laugh* it was so cool Then I got home to a message from a place that I had sent a resume, and they want to interview me tomorrow, and finally, after the interview, I am going to the BEACH!!!!!!!! what a great weekend!!!!!!
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok so life has new meaning. I went to the BEACH today, and it was amazing. I went with my friend and her kids, and life is so simple at the beach... wow! F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So today is the 22 of June, it has been 92 days since I got my get, so I could get re-married if I wanted (not that I am there yet), but more importantly...... SOF KISUI ROSH!!!!!!!!!!!!! F OUT!!!!!!!

Dateline Monday, sometime in June.
Tomorrow will be 92 days since I got my get. Hameivin yavin...... Hope to see you all soon.
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!

hey, just wanted to wish everyone a good shabbos.
F OUT!

Well that is all she wrote. I am unemployed, and woke up this morning with incredible tooth pain, like the kind I had before the root canal last week. That scares me.

Well it is wednesday. As of tomorrow at 3 I am officially unemployed. Friday I get to go to the department of social servies and embarras the hell out of myself applying for food stams (again) then I think I might go find a cliff to drive off of.

Ok so it is Sunday. I have 4 days of work left, after that all charitable donations can be made to the Save Faye fund...... Anywayt, Shabbos was lovely. I always have a good time when I go to the Hacks. I am recoving ok from the root canal for those of you who knew I had it. I still need a cap, and I have at least 1 other cavity that is emergent. This root canal was close to a thousand bucks which I do not. But, as my father points out, even if I did not have dental insurance, if I had a job, I would have money for it. *sigh* Ok well soon I am going to do my impression of a teenager and go babysit for 5 dollars an hour.
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok well since no one reads this I have decided to stop writing. so adieu world! F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well taking my cue from the 2004 Tony winner for best musical, all I can say is IT SUCKS TO BE ME!!!!!!!I hope everyone had a fun weekend.

Anyway, Happy Sunday.......Umpires suck.

CICADAS SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and so does my life.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok so now that i have done that, everyone who reads this must stop and wish good thoughts towards Adina in Teaneck. Today is her 20 something birthday...... hehehehe. Happy Memorial Day to the rest of you. Death to the cicadas!
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shavua Tov y'all. I am so freakin tired. Which makes no sense, since really, I slept most of the day. I have nothing exciting to say, so I will just remind you all to daven for SERACH DENA BAS MEIRA MALKA. F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy not Shavous everyone! Oh wait, happy Erev Shabbat!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! So I went to Harrisburg for Yom Tov, and it was really really nice. I got to learn all night with my friend ZC, so that was cool. Then after davening we started to walk home, and it started to geplucher (my fathers word for pouring down rain, and thunder and lightning! Scary a little bit. Then I got to the place where I was staying, and the damn key did not work. Long story short I did not get into dry clothes until after 7 wednesday morning. UG again! Anyway, I have to go to my friends house to get leftovers for Shabbat. have a great one y'all.
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I MADE IT! I made it all the way through the counting of the Omer with a bracha, mo cheesecake for me! I am wicked wicked excited. I am going to the hinterlands of Pennsylvania for Shavout. The plus (or one of the plusses) is that they have NO CICADAS, which by the way are just disgusting. So to the 3 or 4 people that are going to read this chag shavuot sameach.
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ELAINE IS FINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just thought that I would impart that information to you all. So thank you for all your thoughts and prayers. She has Fifth disease. Which incidentally she told the doctor at the urgent care facility was going around her school, and the doctor told her it could not be. Score one for Elaine! Ok still have no idea what I am doing for Shavout. I mean, really just cause it is the night before........ Anyway, must be doing laundry and stuff in case I get to go away. F OUT!!!!!!!!!

Good evening y'all. Tonite was the 47th day of the Omer which means that Shavuot is in 3 days, and I still have not gotten in touch with the person where I am supposed to be going. On a different note than usual, I would just like to say that my ex-husband is a JACKASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sorry, just thought I would get that off my chest. I was going to link sometihng just cause I know how now, but I cannot think of anything. here we go...Ben's Rants There that is worth a look. Anyway, hope y'all have a good night. Remember to daven for Serach Dina Bas Meira Malka.
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have learned many new skills blogging. The most recent of which is to make things link to a website, or other thingie on the web. Like this, Truly funny website!!! The second of which is to SAY IT IN COLOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Those are my new skills. Also I will add that tonite was the 45 day of the Omer which brings us ever close to Z'man Matan Torateinu. So, Shavout is 5 days away, and I have NO idea where I am staying yet, no biggie right? Must call Dena Rockoff soon, and find out what the heck is going on with that.
Last note before I go shluffie (don't even get to listen to the Orioles game, damn west coas road trip!) My sister is feeling icky again, and we are awaiting the results of the massive blood work, so say some tehillim for LEAH YARDENA BAT NECHA ETTA Also continue to say Tehillim for SERACH DINA BAT MEIRA MALKA
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have to remember to be back at Wellwood at 12 to sub. Anything I can do to earn some extra cash. I know something better is going to come along, but it is tough waiting. if you want to visit a blog that is vehemently pro-Israel the please go to Obsession With Truth. He is a very bright young man. His opinions are right on the money, and I have a feeling that most of you will agree with the sentiment, if not the exact language. Read it, agree with it, link it to your blog!!
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tonite was 42 days of the Omer, which means 6 weeks down and 1 to go. I am sorry, does that mean that Shavous is in a week? HOLY HECK! Anyway, for those of you keeping track, my weekend was much interesting. Not a big fan of urgent care facilities. As my Abba says, those docs are at doc in the box for a reason. I sent my sister home today, and she went to her doctor, who said it was not presenting like anything serious (insert name of disease here), but that she probably picked up some transient infection. End result, she goes for blood work on wednesday.
On a different note, it has been a couple of days since I asked you to daven for SERACH DINA BAS MEIRA MALKA. Here is a little girl who will certainlky benefit from the Tefilot of K'lal Yisroel. I know that here in Baltimore a sefer of tehillim is being said every night on her behalf. Please take a few minutes and add her to your tefilot. Thank you!
Again with the rapid subject change. While I was at my chavrutas house tonite she gave me the yummiest thing. A coffee flavored ice pop. Like those squeezie ones you have as a kid but cannot stand as an adult. Anyway, if you like coffee, and I know that some of you do (ahem mrs likro), TRY THESE!!!!!!!!!
ok... I am done...
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So Here is a quick update. My sister is feeling fine. She is going home back to New Jersey (poor girl), where she will go RIGHT TO THE DOCTOR. Thank you all for your concern, check back here for updates.

Wow! how is that for an obnoxious color?? Okie, moving on with business. So I went down to see my siser, and instead of having our little bonding fest, she decided to be sick, the little brat!!! Anyway, after a sleepless night, she felt better, so we went along our merry ways. Me to home, and she to a baby shower. Except.... not so much. So let's change that to both of us to my house, then to Patient First. We get there, they do blood work. She has an elevated white cell count, which means infection. "What is causing the infection?" we ask, "We don't know" is the oh so intelligent answer. So she is here with me, and we will see how she feels tomorrow. So I am going to go take care of her, as we know more I will let you all know. F OUT!!!!!!!

So todays post will be in different colors, just cause I feel like being annoying! Isn't this a pretty one? I am having so much fun with my rudimentary knowledge of HTML. Ok, can we tell what my favorite color is? So I listen to this radio show in the afternoons, and yesterday something weird happened, and it looked like they were going to be yanked off the air, but they were back today. Last color change, maybe....... Anyway, I do not have anything exciting to say, except that once again I despise my boss, cause she is using me. I go and I do for her, and I go out of my way, and I do everything she asks, and yet she is still going ot let me go........ Anyway, I am done complaining for now, so I will end with this. GOOD SHABBOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sekrit Shoutout: (wow it kills me to write that word that way) Mrs Likro...... Do the words, "I TOLD YOU SO" mean anything to you????????????? I LOVE YOU....

Ok so yesterday that I bragged that I learned enuf HTML code to write in color, BIIIIIG mistake, since today I do nto remember it. Going to go look back in my old posts to see if the code is there... Alright I looked back in my posts, lets see if it works. I should now be writing to you in a really really pretty periwinkle/purple color. Now it should be a mulberry color. Ok, so now that I am done playing with fonts. I went to see one of my kids play softball tonite, her team lost really badly, but GO ATHLETICS anyway! her dad asked me if I had ever thought about coaching. I had not, write and tell me what you think.
As a side note, I cannot stand my boss, she just really ticks me off, and take me for granted. I must find another job, and I think I am gonna need help. I am going to go, cause it is after 9 and it is late enuf to count the Sefirah......
F OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Damn, I lost my last post, and it was a good one too.... damn changes in the website! Here we go, this will be short. Please continue to daven for Serach Dena Bat Meira Malka, also daven for Mary Kate the daughter of Pat, she is a little girl who goes to the school where my sister teaches. she fell several feet out of a tree last Friday, and is now in a coma. Also any learning or shiurim that you have should be an aliyah for the neshamos of Necha Etta Bat Fruma, and Yael Yehudis Sara Bas Sima.
Now on a completely different note, I am going to try to G-D help me learn enough HTML code to type in color... so here goes...
isn't she lovely???? I have no idea if this worked at all, but please if it did not, do not post what a moron I am.

A Chag Sameach to you all who know what that means. A happy mothers day to all of you that that applies to. I went to visit my mommy this morning, it was interesting. I know I said I would write more, but I got 2 hours of sleep and I am muy tired, so maybe I will try to write more either later tonite or tomorrow....... Hey TLW.... thanks for everything, I mean it.
F OUT

Happy L'ag B'Omer everyone! So I had an amazing Shabbos. My friend from NY came to me. I got to talk about my mom alot which was cathartic. I am exhausted and I have to be in Silver Spring at 9 tomororw, so I will write more tomorrow afternoon
F OUT!!!!!

Ok so about 31 (school) days till I am out of a job. Anyway, I am listening to the Orioles on the radio. Anyway who knows me knows that I am a HUGE baseball fan. I LOVE listening to them, and it gives me great pleasure to be able to do it anytime I want, instead of waiting for them to be the game of the week or whatever when I lived in NY. I am beginning to despair even more, and really do not know what I am going to do.... In any case, I caught the last 5 minutes of American Idol, and watching it proved to me that yes, you can have too much of a good thing... That show is so overdone now, I mean really take a break people! My downstairs neighbors are moving, they are going to Israel so that he can go to med school there...... I hate people like them, mommy and daddy pay for everything and they are completely oblivious...... I mean reallly...... Oh daddy bought them a volvo, and she has a 4,000 sheitel, and the whole deal...arghhhhhhh
F OUT!

I had you all daven for Yael Yehudis Sara Bas Sima. It is my sad duty to inform you that she was niftar at about 6:00 last night. My friend called me to tell me. She died peacefully in her sleep with her entire family surrounding her. Please continue to daven for Serach Dena Bat Meira Malka.

I hope everyone had a pleasant Sabbath. Mine was nice. I spent it at my friends house. I got there Friday, and I washed and put away dishes, and generally cleaned p after the hurricane that is 3 children. I realized as I was doing this that I was just like my single friends from 5 years ago. They would come to me for Shabbos, and help cook and clean and stuff. Now they are all married with kids and I am single..... *sigh* Anyway, the job prospects are not looking great, and I am still not real hopeful, but on the plus side, I might be evicted. I am starving, but have no food in the house, and have no motivation to go buy any...... That is all for now. Going to see my Abba tomorrow, first time in like 3 months.......
F OUT!

NNED A JOB, MUST FIND A JOB, NEED JOB NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Ok, I am done ranting for now. I have nothing productive to add, but really if I do not find a job soon, I am screwed. On the plus side, my dad went to the cardiologist for a checkup and everything is good.
F OUT!

It has been 6 months since my Ima was niftar, 6 months since I lost my best friend, and the person I loved most in the world. Today has not been easy. I still have no job as of June whatever it is, and I can't help thinking that I have done NOTHING recently that my mother would be proud of. I cannot even bring myself to write anything new and exciting, I sincerely hope that my life turns itself around soon, cause otherwise, I am going to cry. Oh wait, doing that already......

I hope everyone had a lovely Shabbat. I think I may have logged a new record for sleeping. Anyone who knows me knows I am not real likely to sleep Shabbat afternoon because then I will not sleep Sat. night. Well that plan got shot to hell, and boy did I sleep! Anyway, tonite we counted 19 days of the Omer. I can say that cause I already counted, still with a bracha even. On Friday I asked everyone to say tehillim for Yael Yehudis Sara Bas Sima and for Serach Dena Bas Meira Malka. I cannot stress enough how important this is. I do not know if it is because I recently lost my mother, or just b/c anyone can see how much is sux to lose someone you love, but it is tearing me up inside that my friend Rachael is losing her mother. And the other one, the girl is only 5, she has not yet begun to live. Our tehillim together can help her.
On a completely different note. I still have no job for next year, heck no job for June. If anyone has lots of extra money to donate to the Save F Foundation I am all for it. (That would be funny if everyone did not know that I take money from NO ONE). Anyway. I need to go spend time job searching, but I just cannot bring myself to do it tonite. maybe I will give myself the night off. Hey J.... how were the swoops? were they unreal? Ok can we tell I need chocolate in a big way? Anyway, I am gonna go for now...... F OUT!

so it is erev Shabbat. Ok first things first, I have one friend whose mother is VERY VERY sick. Please say tehillim for Yael Yehudis Sara Bas Sima. Also someone I know from NCSY has a 5 year old daughter with an inoperable brain tumor. Please take the time to say tehillim for Serach Dina Bas Meira Malka. Please take time to do your part. The voices of klal yisrael together are powerful. That is all I have for now, but please please please I say again, do something!

Someone please tell me that I am going to get a job, and not be evicted. Right now it does not look good. It just ticks me off, I am qualified to do so much, and yet I find myself applying for secretary/filing positions. If my mother knew that she would be unhappy. I guess in that respect it is good that she is no longer alive. In every other respect it absolutely BITES! Anyway, and it continues to suck, it does not get better, no matter what they tell you. Mothers day is coming up and i have no idea how the hell I am gonna handle that. Made worse by the fact that J's mother died ON freakin mothers day last year... and while I am glad that my ex-idiot is gone, I am so tired of being lonely. I just want something to work out for once. A job and benefits would be a great start..... Wow all i seem to do here is bitch and moan. D you were right, a great way to get things out. benefitted of course by the fact that I am sure that almost no one reads this.. Certainly not insane roommate woman, different than psycho jesus lady for those of you that remember. oh and another thing, someone explain to me how I could have so successfully had several couples date on my couch, but fail miserably at my own marriage, I just fail to comprehend. In any case, on the depressing note, I am off to bed.... if anyone is reading this, i feel like i am drowning.....

another fruitless day spent job searching. Ms. Likro, I am so glad you found something at least part time. Gives me hope. Today is the 14th day of the Omer and I am still counting with a bracha (go me). Anyway, I really have nothing of substance to say, so I will sign off for now. If the muse hits again, I will let you all know........

It is a beautiful Sunday afternoon here where I live. It is also like 80 degrees. I am still recovering from the plague, but gam zeh ya'avor I guess. I am spending many many hours searching for jobs cause as of the last day of school I am out of one. Anyway with any ideas about what I can do please let me know. I cannot teach in pulbic school b/c of my stupid former principal, and I have NO IDEA what hte heck i am gonna do. Beyond desperate here...... will do just about anything except cleaning windows. Scared, very scared.....

Erev Shabbat 4-16
I hope everyone got their taxes in on time. For myself, I did an extension since my idiot of an ex husband was on unemployment, and I REFUSE to pay the taxes on that! Anywho.... so B"H for Shabbat. I am eating out both meals, which means I did not have to deal with the mess that is Seven Mile Market. Just as a side I need everyone to daven really really really hard for Yael Yehudis Sara Bat Sima. My friends mother is very ill, and now it is a matter of time. I have a chavrusa every Monday and we learn in her zechus, so if anyone is kovea itim, and they would mention her name, I would appreciate it. Ok so that is done. The job seach continues, if anyone knows what I can do besides teaching, please let me know. Again to the 4 people who read this in cyber space, have a great shabbat and call me.

I have had some time to sleep now. Not that I am not still exhausted. Pesach on the whole was AMAZING!! I felt like part of a family, which was nice, since mine was all apart this year. Thank G-D for S&D, I am telling you. There were a few notable exceptions to my fantastic holiday. I got to go swimming (yay) then coming out of the pool my (left) ankle gave out and my shins slammed down on the pool deck(boo). After realizing that both legs still worked (yay) I got out of the pool to discover a 2 inch wide gash in my leg that proceeded to bleed for 3 days. (boo) my right leg is black and blue from right below my knee to my ankle. I think I popped a blood vessel or something (boo) I got to sleep late a few mornings (yay). The one big bad serious icky thing was that I had to light my first yartzheit candle this year, and that was NOT fun. I also said Yizkor for the first time. I asked a she'eila for all of you who care and that is the p'sak I got, so yizkor it was. It was truthfully a lot of buildup about a few paragraphs of tefilot, not at all bad. However when I lit the candle monday night it was bad. It made for a very weepy last day of Yom Tov. None of this was helped by my roommate telling me that "yes my husband walked out on me, and yes my mother died, but that i have to GET OVER IT!!" and "MOVE ON" So that was the bad parts. I met some truly amazing people, and I will state their names here for the record. Rabbi Yale Butler, you are an amazing man and should continue to see nachas from all of your offspriing, and Rabbi Mendel Markel, you are a true Ish Torah, and the world should benefit from your insights for a long long time. TrueKabbalah . Okie dokie then, I am going to sign off for a while. If you want to hear about my epiphany then please email me, or call me, since I am too tired to type it here. Also, Shavuous in Harrisburg for any single people who want to come do a HUGE mitzvah! Call or email me for details!

Ok, just back from West Virginia, where it is all relative. get it??? Anyway, it is really freaking late, but I told work I would not be there tomorrow morning, and I was RIGHT!!!!!!!!! Pesach was great with a few HUGE exceptions, which I will write more about tomorrow when I am more coherent.

Ok so the day before pesach, really there are just no words. Even if you are not going to be home (thanks S&D) I ran all over the freakin place!!! Now I am home for Bedika, but of course the roommate is not, and really I have to take my friend home, then I have to pack, and all I want to do is watch the O's on TV (I miss you Ima) and they are only on cable,....... damnit! Grumpy! More later!!!!!!!!!!

Dateline Motza"sh
Had a great Shabbos at S&D's. Bonded with their son who I used to babysit for who is now in 10th grade at NER ISRAEL!!!! (so freaked out by this) Everything was great till I came home, and the apt looked like a bomb had hit it. Whatever....... As a side note, does anyone know how to erase a web address from the address bar, so that when you scroll down you do not see it. If so, please advise. Anyway, tomorrow going to finish the living room for Pesach, then I need to pack, well I do not need to, but it would be nice if I had more then the clothes on my back when I got to the hotel. Anywho.... Dunno if I will get a change to write again before Monday, so to the 3 people in cyber space that read this, have a chag kasher v'sameach.

It is way way to late for someone who has to be at work at 7 to be up. Like someone else I have the insomnia, like someone else I have the headache. Whatever. Efrex, thanks for putting in the commenting code, and I TRIED to add links, following your directions, but it did not seem to work..... Whatever story of my life. My pathetic existence begins again tomorrow.......
G'nite world

let us try this again. I know it is bare bones, but at least if you read it you do not have to listen to me ramble on the phone. So let us see, the situation that you all know about is not getting any better, but whatever, I have placed an add for a new one. I am starting to get excited about Pesach. If I do say so myself, my program for the kiddies is great. Really, 9 days in a hotel does not sound bad. All of you that are cleaning, I am sorry. Anyway, I have to go get new tires (I lead such an exciting life).

ok so i have no idea how this works, I cannot figure out how to post my descriptions or nothing, and my first one was really freakin funny
I think i hear my bed calling my name....

Ok here goes. My first blog entry. Well first off all, I have to say, doesn't blog just sound like something you would not want to step in? "Dude, look out for that blog on the floor." Alternatively, it would also be appropriate as a retching sound. Anyway, I have nothing of substance to say, so I will say this, darn I am tired. I guess as I get more proficient in "blogging" these will get better as well. Thank you D for the idea, you are right it is a good idea to get my feelings out.